I don't dare come out and tell everyone how I'm feeling right now. I used to be quite open but my friends told other people and I lost control of who knew. After a while, infertility and IVF-procedures was all I talked about because I felt like I owed it to people to answer all their questions and keep them updated, since I had told them about it in the first place. I know they let me talk about it for my own sake but I don't think it was good for me to always be reminded about my pain and hardships so one day I told them I didn't have the energy to talk about it anymore.
That was a few years ago and I am up to my eyeballs in thoughts and feelings that I need to share now. After I started this blog in May I've felt so much better. I'm still not sure if I want my friends to read it though. Correction. They are welcome to read it, as long as they don't know that they know me. Once it's out, I can't take it back.
It was much easier to talk about infertility than depression.
Showing posts with label sharing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sharing. Show all posts
Dec 2, 2009
Sharing the pain
Dear Reader,
I am sorry for your pain. I am going on seven years now and was hoping to maybe get in touch with someone with similar experiences. On other sites I've mostly read about other women who have tried to have a baby for a couple of months or years and then got P. I am hoping to find a kindred soul who has been living with this for as long as me or longer. I am happy to hear that reading my posts makes you feel a little less alone. That is the reason I started writing about it!
I am sorry for your pain. I am going on seven years now and was hoping to maybe get in touch with someone with similar experiences. On other sites I've mostly read about other women who have tried to have a baby for a couple of months or years and then got P. I am hoping to find a kindred soul who has been living with this for as long as me or longer. I am happy to hear that reading my posts makes you feel a little less alone. That is the reason I started writing about it!
May 18, 2009
Grief
I feel like there's no one who understands the grief I carry in my heart. This blog is an attempt to finding someone I can identify with. Not for comfort or prophecies of a miracle - just to end my loneliness.
I decided to start blogging about it all today. This is essentially a diary written for me but maybe someone will be given a thought or two because of it. There is no point in doing this if I don't write my darkest thoughts of despair, wrung out of a tear wet snotty hanky. Don't expect a politically correct, romanticized picture of my torments. I intend to do my best to honestly share my most hideous thoughts with you.
All you need is some kleenex and compassion.
I decided to start blogging about it all today. This is essentially a diary written for me but maybe someone will be given a thought or two because of it. There is no point in doing this if I don't write my darkest thoughts of despair, wrung out of a tear wet snotty hanky. Don't expect a politically correct, romanticized picture of my torments. I intend to do my best to honestly share my most hideous thoughts with you.
All you need is some kleenex and compassion.
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