I don't dare come out and tell everyone how I'm feeling right now. I used to be quite open but my friends told other people and I lost control of who knew. After a while, infertility and IVF-procedures was all I talked about because I felt like I owed it to people to answer all their questions and keep them updated, since I had told them about it in the first place. I know they let me talk about it for my own sake but I don't think it was good for me to always be reminded about my pain and hardships so one day I told them I didn't have the energy to talk about it anymore.
That was a few years ago and I am up to my eyeballs in thoughts and feelings that I need to share now. After I started this blog in May I've felt so much better. I'm still not sure if I want my friends to read it though. Correction. They are welcome to read it, as long as they don't know that they know me. Once it's out, I can't take it back.
It was much easier to talk about infertility than depression.
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