Energy

Now that I've been grieving for so many years, I'm low on energy. So I have to start conserving energy and concentrate on building it up again. In order to do this, it's important to understand what I lose it on. Making decisions is a huge drainer. Even simple decisions like what to eat or even whether to eat or not takes loads of energy. Energy I just can't afford to spend. So I made a schedule telling me when to get up in the morning, when to eat, get dressed, etc. And I needed to follow it whether I felt like it or not. I was supposed to get up off the bed and take my sad thoughts with me to kitchen, even if I was crying. I also needed to rest more, but not just whenever. I needed to schedule more rest so I would still be able to go to bed at a reasonable time at night.

All of this has helped me gain control of my sad thoughts and feelings and eventually I started feeling better. I haven't cried much since last summer so I guess it's working. I have kept myself busy with travel, family, work, etc, which also keeps my mind off it.